Jen's Blog: September 7 2005

September 7 2005

Well, another exciting boring day on the road. I do love driving and reflect. Texas has been said to be flat and boring. It is not the most interesting of states, though I have never seen so much oil machinery before and the mystery of the different kinds of vegetation.

Today, I drove straight through to Fort Worth with more interesting thoughts and feelings of my past coming through. Mainly about a childhood dream I had which is my life in metaphors. Most of the people and situations in this dreams have happened. I had this dream when I was 12 or 13 years old. Every once in a while I will remember a section of it. Today was about my friendship with a bartender of the local place in the dream. I had told the bartender that I was looking for a secret and would continue looking for this secret until it was discovered. I would not be leaving this place until I did. He agreed to wait.

Now in this section my guides showed me today, I went to the bartender and told him I was ready now. With this, he pulled me over the bar, breaking glasses and bottles of liquors. Then I disappeared behind the bar and the scene went to black with only our laughter being heard. Next, I was sitting in front of a large pane window with lots of light coming through... I was being bathed in this light.

The meaning of this part of the dream could mean that I left with my true love and ended with my authentic self or does it? With metaphors in dreams, this scene can take on many possibilities. One is that I get pulled into the bartender's world and disappear... well what happened to him at the end of the dream? I did sense being much loved at the end, but there was no evidence that he was still around. I was alone at the end of this dream with a peaceful look upon my face. I still looked pretty young.

Another possibility is that I was pulled into the business world and was successful with the abundance of the universe after finishing my path. Victory after the journey.

I could have run off with the bartender and then he left after a while with me. I found peace enjoying his company while it lasted. How this relates to my real life is still out.

There are many parts in mycurrent reality that adds to the mystery of this dream and its meaning.

I do have a man in my life, who at one time, was a bartender. He has another career now. He is a soulmate, a teacher and my muse. I did not know him in a face to face way. He is a spiritual connection, though he is a real person. He is a mystery to me in what exactly he is to me. We are close in my dreams. Is he waiting for me to say I am ready now. That I have figured out the secret. I am hoping for more understading at this workshop. (www.coreflush.com)

More on the workshop and what it is doing for me... building a more stable foundation for myself so I can helping others. By understanding myself, removing the blocks and obstacles from being my highest potential, I will be a better teacher, advisor and guide for others. I am here to service humanity. How I am to service changes for me. I do love helping others in getting a handle on their lives to get themselves in a better place.

I continue up to Hot Springs tomorrow and will check out the area before starting this inner journey into my core and my soul. Till tomorrow's adventure begins.. Peace~ Jen