Jen's Blog: September 9 2005

September 9 2005

On September 6, 2005, I left my home on an adventure of realizations and releasing. I didn’t know what to expect from Starr Fuentes, a Master Teacher and Healer that I met for 10 minutes in May, 2005.During this short reading, she picked up that I am connected to Source, but I had one major block that I have in my gut and have for centuries now. It is keeping me from being successful and blocking my connection to Source some.
On my way, I stopped at Carlsbad Caverns and Gualuape National Park. Good places to go.
Now as I drove from Fort Worth onto Hot Springs, I reflected and remembered past relationships that I was still connected in some way. All the things that went right and wrong in the relationship and all the emotions came back with it. So much anger and disappointment. I had recently realized that I had a large amount of anger, starting in my childhood and now see the past lives connect to it.
This trip was a risk for me in many ways… financially, it was more than I had available, yet I knew that I could not afford not coming here.
The Tower tarot card flashed in my mind’s eye, meaning all fallen apart to be rebuilt for new beginnings after learning lessons. I had some insights about this process and many psychics had told me of a huge transformation that I am in the middle of and the end is coming with the workshop.
So I arrived a day early to Hot Springs, Arkansas and I got to see more of the town before starting the class of two weeks. As I drove in, I passed the Dome where the class was and stopped by to let them know that I had arrived. I met one of the teachers and J, her assistant who was also taking the workshop with me.
I went to the hotel, taking a nap before getting some dinner at a nearby Chinese restaurant. Relaxing that evening, while figuring out going to the Garvin Gardens the next day for meditation time.
While at the Garden, I wrote some poetry and took some photos of the grounds for ideas for my own garden.
I returned again at the Dome to check on the time and met another participant, A while there. “A” had come in from the east for the workshop. She like me was at the last straw of things and seeing deep insights about ourselves. We were in room next to each other and decided to drive in together. My roommate, “R” was in the room, locking me out of it with the chain. She was on the phone when I arrived and went outside to finish her call. I saw walls and boundaries too strong. I was going to go with the flow of things. After the phone call, we talked and she finally hung up her clothes next to mine and was a little more settled in. She had some control issues, but hey… so do I. We all drove to the Dome for dinner and the meeting afterwards.
As the time continued, we got more information about the schedule, requirements and what the workshops were about. We got a note for doing assignments and notebooks with the assignments in a nice travel bag for the keeping. The meal was excellent… of chicken, salad, vegetables and dessert. All the meals would be everyone’s favorite meal. For me, Filet Mignon. I didn’t think I would get this expensive meal, but I did as other meals were lobster, pasta shrimp, other chicken meals, pot roast, stir fry, and much more. We got three meals a day. For breakfast, scramble eyes, oatmeal, fruit salad, coffee, bread, pancakes, etc. Lunch were light versions of dinner, if not leftovers for the dinner.
We introduced ourselves and our careers. I was the only one working in the intuitive life coaching. Starr said for the beginning, she was going to be harder on me and expect more in my insights of the others. She saw I had an innate wisdom that wasn’t being used properly and to it fullest abilities… some of my gifts were blocked and it was time to unblock them.