Jen's Blog: September 14 2005

September 14 2005

Well, the meals continue to be wonderful and full of magic. We all are getting tired and we got a break and went crystal hunting. It was an overcast day and may rain. I was looking forward to this. I drove to the place with Art, another shaman and another person. Art is an avid crystal hunter and told us what the basic things to look for to find a crystal. We had been told to buy some clothes and shoes that we could throw away. The Hot Spring Clay had lots of healing properties in it, but it also stained with an orange tint, much like the red dirty of Sedona. So I was familiar with the soil. It was very grounding to play in the mud, finding crystals of all sizes. Hot Springs is one of two places in the world and the second largest crystal deposits. The crystals are many clarity, including very clear.

I was amazed finding the crystals in a point. I had always thought that were shaped by man that way. No, it is natural and if you can find one with no to few dings in it… it can be worth lots of money. They are many types of crystals. I did find some multi-point crystals as well as a cluster. Art gave me one that he found which was most appreciated. I found many small ones that I will be making into necklaces to wear.

We were given an assignment of finding one multi-point or double for Starr to do some magic for us. I found a cute little crystal that I gave to Starr for this. I wish I had cleaned it better.

The two men, Ed and Ray who worked the place were very helpful and told us some more hints on finding them. They also mixed up the dirt a bit to help us out. The rain also helps wash the crystals into sight. It made it easier to find them. Look for the shiny black and you got a clear crystal of some kind. We continued for a while and then headed back. We all got to go back to the hotel and clean up from the mud.

We continued the afternoon session after lunch.
My sessions were focused on the treatment I received from my family. Starr said many times that the one with the most light gets the worst treatment. That was the case with me.

As a child, my sisters would tease me, telling me that I was retarded, that I was adopted and my parents bought me home because no one else would take me. As I started school, I found out that I had a learning disability, dyslexia and the comment about being retarded took a strong hold in my psyche. I had a serious self confidence and self esteem problems growing up. I have overcome some of that, but there was still some anger that I was holding on from my childhood.

Again, Starr mentioned that I was blocking Source and my innate wisdoms. I was here to reconnect with Source, yet there was a duality going on with me. I was angry at God for being the way I am and yet I had trust in God too. I needed to get over the duality for the connection to be opened again. One step at a time, I was doing it.